I am 27 years old, I have been playing for 13 years. Throughout high school and college, guitar consumed my life. It is all I did when I got home from school. When I wasn't reading about guitars, I was thinking about them. Countless hours spent playing, hours spent browsing TGP these last 10 years. I did the band thing for a little bit but it wasn't my thing, but I mostly enjoyed playing on my own, or privately with 1 or 2 friends. I used to have a small group of "guitar friends" 4 people, including me. They would come over and we would play, try out each other's guitars, amps, etc. These friends eventually moved on to other things, moved away. I finished college, got a full time job, and the desire to play just evaporated fairly quickly. It is not like I have no free time. I have a lot of free time after work, but I spend it watching netflix/youtube/ and video games. It seems like for the last couple years, I have had no motivation to plug in and play. I've been trying to determine why I started playing in the first place, and I can't think of any concrete reason. When I was 14, I was a huge gamer., and spent most of my time on the computer My dad disliked this, and wanted me to get involved in something "more serious" so during a xmas eve family get together in 2003, he found out that my cousin was taking guitar lessons. One thing led to another and he got my cousin to start teaching me guitar. I'm not really sure why I went along with it. I guess I felt it didn't hurt to give it a shot. I guess learning came easy to me, and it just kind of bloomed from there. I started researching guitar playing on the internet, and through that I found various guitar forums such as this one. I slowly got more and more interested. It was during this time when I met people who also played guitar in school. I signed up for a guitar class. That gave me the motivation to keep getting better because it was something I could display to these people, and I felt like there was at least someone who cared. I think that is one huge factor as to why my desire just disappeared. I feel like none of it matters, and no one cares. I start trying to learn a guitar solo off a recording and then I stop and ask myself why the hell am I doing this? I can't really answer the question. I then start thinking who the hell cares that I learned this solo? no one. I found myself getting in to my own little world on the weekends, and then monday morning walking into the office and getting that "back to reality" feeling. Realizing that in the end, no one gives a crap about my playing, my guitar collection, whether I learned that solo last night, etc. Reality hits, and then I'm sitting in another team meeting talking about company things that I don't care about. Because that is what is supposed to matter. I find myself sometimes sitting at my desk and hear a song come on Spotify that for a brief moment makes me actually want to pick up the guitar and learn it. It quickly fades after I ask myself what the point is. What reward do I get if I learn this solo? This brings me back to the realization that it no one cares and what is the point. It's very hard to explain. I still get the itch to buy new equipment but realize its too expensive (even though I can afford it) and doesn't matter, I won't play it, it will just sit there. I am hoping there is at least someone who has been in my shoes.