I don't even know why i'm writing this...i guess i just want to vent out or something. I've been with her for almost five years.I really really love her...and i thought she has same feelings for me.We've been in a long distance relationship since day one,seeing her every two weeks but no more than that and we chat and skype all that.You see shes younger than me (i'm 32 shes 24) she was in college and i worked and played in bar bands all my life i wasn't sure that long distance relationship is going to last but after first year it was great...for the last year i got a major pro gig with our country star as a guitar player and suddenly i worked three shifts seven days a week and played three days a week i didn't sleep more than 3-4 hours a day...but the money was good.i asked her if she was ok with it and she said it's something i love and i should carry on...of course it took a toll on us seeing each other but now it was every three weeks.two months ago she started working and finishing her degree and i told her i'm going to quit my job and just play and i was going to move in the city she is in and asked her if she would want to live with me and she was over the moon with it (i was always open of not wanting to get married and have kids in this time of my life but maybe in the future) she knew that...i found a great apartment for us and i had a rugh schedule in december with gigs andi told her i was coming home on christmas eve in our hometown (were both from the same town).we saw each other and i saw she was little under the mood...i saw that couple of times in the last two months but thought hey,we all have those days...long story short she said she can't bare the thought of me touring all the time and that we grew apart.she said that i wasn't giving her those little things i did when we first started dating...hugs, little gifts etc. in other words she thinks i started taking her for granted...she was maybe wright about that (with those little stuff) but i didn't do it on purpose...i love her even more now than before. I was just so caught up with my job and than finally having that "big break" with music career and finally living from playing music that i didn't see her slowly moving on.she basically said she loved me but she can't see being with somebody that is three or four days a week on gigs.and she was preparing herself for this breakup for months...but it hit me like freight train. we talked about it and i even said i'll stop touring and find regular work and i'll do everything she needs/wants just to give me a second chance...but to no avail. things are not the same anymore and i can't fix this. i asked her if there was someone else she met but she denied it.i don't know...i'm a mess.it hit me and it hit me hard.