I can't relate to this madness anymore. But at 1 time I was like this. Not anger issues. but worried I might scratch something. Then I dropped hot solder on the back of my Les Paul and yelled at myself until I remembered I wanted to do this myself. I got over it and its on the back so no one sees it. Now I play and shine whats left, WHAT THE HELL. Its just a $1500 guitar, it still works actually better since I was replacing parts.